Andrew's first Thanksgiving

I know I've gotten really bad about updating my blog. What can I say, it's hard to do when you're busy :) and I like it that way :) but this is my late Thanksgiving entry.

I had today off work and didn't have any appointments, so I spent most of the morning catching up on my fellow CF blogs and forums. So much has happened with them, including a lot of CF deaths. It just hits on a deep level that is hard to describe. There's been a few CFers that have received their lung transplants, which always makes me smile. Then there's one cystic who's blog I've been following, she's #1 on her list right now. Maybe she'll get lungs by Christmas! Reading everyone's transplant journeys makes me remember my whole experience and I can't help but smile. While it was one of the hardest things I've ever done, the rewards I've received after have been wonderful!

It all reminds me of all that I have to be thankful for this year. I'm alive... above and beyond anything else, I AM ALIVE! Truth be told, I wasn't sure I was going to be here this year for Thanksgiving. So I leave this entry with just a simple thanks... Thank you to all of the organ donors (especially mine :) ), to all of the members of CF.com which have given me such support, and most of all, my family. Without them I wouldn't have had the strength to get through this last year.

Well, Hell.

So I've just about had it with my luck. Or maybe I should look at this situation as I should start playing the lottery.

So after my last entry, I continued dance classes. My muscles aren't liking me too much, but oh well. I missed classes on Thursday and Friday because I had to go back up to Cleveland. This time was to have a repeat bronch to check to make sure my rejection had cleared. I still don't have the results of this, but I was rewarded with a hospital stay.

On our way home Friday, after the bronch, I felt a little sore. I figured it was just from the biopsy and got in the car and fell asleep. When Mom and I got home, she woke me up and the pain had gotten worse. Wonderful. So I called the clinic to see what they thought I should do. "Go to your nearest ER and get 2 chest x-rays, you probably have a pneumothorax" Great! So Mom and I get back into the car and go to the Children's Liberty campus. They know me well there now...

Sure enough, the doctor came back in and I have a slight pneumothrorax - collapsed lung in fancy terms. After talking with Cleveland, they decided that best course of action was for me to be admitted for observation and to recheck my xray in the morning. I breathed a sigh of relief because they weren't talking about placing a chest tube... which is what I was expecting. So Saturday afternoon comes, it's time for the xray and I can't sit up in my own bed let alone move to a wheelchair. They had to transport me to xray in my hospital bed. I always feel so embarrassed being transported in my bed, I don't know why, just do. But we got the films and surprise, not only has the pneumothorax worsened, I now have fluid building up on the right lung. Fan-freakin'-tastic!

At that point they decided that they were going to observe me one more night and that they would give me real pain meds, not just a couple of tylenol. So once the morphine kicked in I was able to finally lay on my back. Up until that point the only comfortable position was on my left side. Sunday they made the decision that Cleveland wanted me up there, so transport was being arranged. I had an ambulance take me to Lunken airport, the plane flew me up the 40 minute flight, and then an ambulance from the airport in Cleveland to the hospital.

So now I'm back here at Cleveland Clinic. My blood culture results showed that I have some bacterial infection going on, so I'm back on IV antibiotics. Hopefully I'll be able to get home and away from the germy hospital Thursday, but we'll see. Next week I'll resume dance, I've been tutoring my neighbor after school for homework help, and I'll be starting back at Wendy's. Yes, I said it, I'm going back to Wendy's to work. What can I say, I'm poor and I'm bored and I know the manager will take care of me there! I just have to make under $980 a month and it won't touch my benefits at all.

There's more details, but I'm tired and this is getting long. I think it covers the general idea of what I've gone through this last week. Just gotta keep my head above water for right now! right?!

A little sunshine will do you good

So this increase in prednisone is killing me! I can't seem to stop eating and it's making my blood sugars so hard to control. Oh well, if a few extra shots means I gain a few extra pounds, so be it. It can only mean that I get this button out quicker, right?

The 9th was Cameron's birthday and we celebrated by going to P.F. Chang's for dinner. We ate so much food but I was still hungry when we left. Go figure. But that was the extent of what we did. We're trying to save our money so we can go to New Mexico to visit his family. I don't know if that's going to happen though with all of the flu things going on, my center is a little timid about me traveling. Especially with my white blood count doing funny things.

My WBC was low when I had all of my blood levels checked Tuesday, so they wanted it re-checked when I went for my yearly labs on Friday. I also had my full yearly PFT that day and my lung function has increased again! I'm now at 67%, which makes me almost tear up since it's been so long since I've seen those numbers and felt this good. To have a test show that makes all of the struggles I've gone through completely worth it. But anyway, the WBC came back a little higher, but they weren't able to do a differential (tell what kind of white blood cells there are) because the sample was too degraded. Lab error. I understand that this can happen, but dammit!! So Cleveland wanted me to repeat my labs Tuesday. I talked to them today and they said that my prograf levels were high and they had wanted me to have all of the blood tests redrawn, not just the CBC, so back to the lab I go on Monday to be poked again. Just what everyone wants to hear :)

Last Thursday Cameron and I were able to get out of the house and go to a play. We saw Sleuth at Playhouse in the Park. It was good, but I don't think I could see it again. The part that made it good was not knowing what was going to happen next so I think it's a see it once kinda of play.

Sunday I went the to renaissance festival with Adrianne and Sherri. I had never been to it before, so it was nice to finally be able to go and do all of that walking. I was tired after, but I like being this kind of tired. It's so much more rewarding than being tired from simply breathing!

And here's the best news : I took my first full dance class in 5 years!! That was Monday night and I was by far the worst in the class... all of my technique has disappeared! The important thing though is that I was there and I wasn't that short of breath and I finished it!! I'm still so sore though!! Back for more classes tomorrow night and then again Friday afternoon. Kelly and I are in the middle of picking out a song to do a duet to, which I'm pumped about!

Oh, and my neighbor's sister's results have all come back negative! It's been a very good week :) Beautiful sunshine and wonderful news all around!

OI!

So much has happened in the last month. It started out great with being able to go to a Red's game with Cameron and Jesse - a friend from WKU. They lost pretty bad, but I had a blast,even though I ripped my jeans falling on a curb! Cam and I went to his wedding a few months ago and it was great to be able to see him since he lives farther away.

A couple weeks after that I made my first road trip without a ton of medical supplies. It kind of made me giddy to just have a tiny duffle bag :) I went up tp Columbus to visit my friend Michelle. Other than the meds making me feel super sick when I was heading back home, it was a wonderful trip!

Once I got home I repacked for Cleveland for my 6 month visit/bronch/biopsy. I had such nerves going in to that visit but everything went fine during the exam. When I got home my Mom told me that one of my CF friends was sick and on a vent. His name is Danny and had his transplant almost 2 years ago. The following day Cleveland called and told me I was in the early stages of rejection again. Nothing big, just increased my prednisone and I have to go back October 2 for a repeat bronch to make sure it clears.

That Friday my boys came in from WKU and we all went out to dinner at a fancy restaurant. It was so much fun to see all of them (4 guys and me for dinner - kind of interesting) and it reminded me of how much I miss seeing them all the time like I did at school. The bad side to the night was I was home just a few hours after dinner sick in the bathroom. It was either food poisoning or a "gallbladder" attack. I say that in quotes because I no longer have one, but that's what it felt like. I spent the rest of the next day puking and in bed. Oh, did I fail to mention that it was my 25th birthday that day? Happy freaking Birthday! I felt better on Sunday and we celebrated everything then. I was even able to blow out all 25 candles on my cake in one breath - because I GOT NEW LUNGS!! It was awesome :)

Found out recently that my neighbor's sister has breast cancer so please keep her and her family in your prayers. Also, keep Danny's family in your prayers - his funeral was today. That's all I can really talk about those things, it's all still too new, too close, and too painful right now.

That's all of things for now. I should have more next week after a few more doctor appointments, Cameron's birthday and a play. Gotta stay busy and keep my mind off things. I may have to find a job to keep this much off my mind :)

All the Results

So I'm going to backtrack a little here. I forgot to post about my first appointment with Dr. Trapnell since transplant :)

My weight was down (98lbs) since I'd been so sick. The Tuesday before my appointment I spent the afternoon in the ER getting IV fluids and anti-nausea meds. I wasn't even able to keep water down that day... ack! So I got a prescription for dissolvable anti-nausea pills and those helped to at least get my meds and a little bit of food down. Cleveland had also stopped my Cellcept which they think was the culprit. My lung function is still holding at about 63% and I couldn't be happier!!

The following Monday was when I got the phone call from Cleveland saying that they wanted to admit me. I had my bronch on Tuesday, came home Wednesday. On Friday they called and told me that I had (*drum roll*) No Rejection!! Plus, the fluid from my pleural effusion (the fluid around my lung that they tapped) didn't have any signs of yeast yet. Keep your fingers crossed that those results stay the same!! It takes a long time for yeast to grow, so there's still a possibility that it could show up but I've decided that it's not going to grow anymore ;)

I went for my bloodwork today and my white blood count is still climbing - I'm at 4 now. Remember 7-10 is "normal" so I'm half-way there! I should be allowed to go into public without a mask as of Friday (it marks 3 month post-tx) but I may keep it a while longer with that count being so low. But I'm definitely ready to be without that mask and not have people staring so much. Especially right now with the whole swine flu scare stuff. I guess I really SHOULD keep my mask though with all of this going on... Oh well, gotta have SOMETHING to complain about :P

Back Again

So we had another little bump in the road.

I've been busy getting things together for the CF walk and preparing for my trip to Cleveland on Mother's Day. Well, that trip has been canceled since I just got back from it.

I went for my normal routine blood work on Monday and found out that not only is my white blood count low (2.3 - eek!) but the culture from my last lung tap came back with yeast in it. Great. So Monday night Mom and I drove up to Cleveland and I was admitted to the hospital. Tuesday they went ahead and did my bronch and tapped my lung again. Today (Wednesday) I was discharged since everything is looking great. The only changes I have right now is that they are holding the Cellcept and Valcyte (the Cellcept they think was causing my nausea and vomiting last week and the Valcyte can cause a low white count) and they've changed my antifungal to Voriconizole. I've been on this drug before... it's just a stronger antifungal than the prophylactic one I was on.

I go for more bloodwork here in Cincinnati on Monday to make sure my white blood count is continuing to go up. I should know the results from my bronch by then too. I'll be sure to let everyone know what that all shows as soon as I know :)

Back from Cleveland

We're back from Cleveland now. I've waited on posting so that I had all of the information from Cleveland to avoid multiple non-coherent posts.

Mom and I left Sunday afternoon and stopped at the outlet malls on the way up. It was a beautiful day and I was able to walk the entire mall!!! Plus, I was able to hold a conversation while doing it - so awesome!! As a reward, I bought myself a new dress and some chocolate :) We then got in the car and finished our trek up to Cleveland. When we got there we ordered Rascal's pizza (which, if any of you remember, is the place that kept my family well fed with wonderful pizza while I was in the hospital... plus delivering beer while I was in surgery - haha!!) and then trying to get some sleep. Mom and I don't share bedrooms easily - I'm a light sleeper and she snores (tee hee)

So Monday we get up and get ready. I was more than ecstatic to be able to get ready in under an hour since I didn't have breathing treatments to do!! Plus, my overnight bag was smaller than Mom's! NO MORE HUGE ROLLING SUITCASE WOO HOO!!!

I had bloodwork at 7:45, got breakfast at the little cafe there (yummy breakfast sandwiches), xray at 9. Mom stayed down in xray and waited for my films to be printed while I went for my pft at 9:30. My pfts are at 63%!!! They haven't been like in almost 10 years! Now if I could just have my weight and muscles be the same, life would be perfect ;)

I met with Dr. Budev and she was very happy with how I am doing. The only issue that she saw was I had a little fluid building up around my left lung again. No big deal, it's normal, but they wanted an ultrasound to see if it needed to be drained again. So on my way to Infectious Disease I had an ultrasound of my back to mark where the fluid was and more bloodwork to check my INR level to see if we could even tap with with the blood thinners. My INR was 2.2, which is therapeutic for treating clots but doesn't work for sticking a needle into my back. They've decided that they're just going to see me back in 3 weeks and deal with the fluid then since I'm still improving and feeling well.

I also had an ultrasound of my arms and all of the clots have resolved except the one near my port. This one has shrunk though and there is good blood flow around it, so they're happy :) and so am I.

I had to go to infectious disease since my old lungs had histoplasmosis (a yeast) and they just want to follow me a while to make sure that the yeast doesn't find it's way back to my new lungs. Being that I live in the Cincinnati area and this yeast is naturally around the river, I run the risk of culturing it again. Being that they know this, I'll just be monitored and they have a plan for treatment should I show symptoms. It's always reassuring to hear that they have a plan before things become an issue than to have them be reactive about things.

Mom and I finally got to the car at around 4:30 and were desperate to find food since we hadn't had lunch yet. With all of the appointments and running, there wasn't time to stop! We managed to find a Skyline just a few minutes from the hospital and got some conies and I got a 3-way potato - YUM!! Poor Mom was trying to drive in rough weather and heavy traffic, so she kind of had to watch me inhale my potato before she got to start her food. I did eventually give her a packet of crackers though... she's lucky she got that being I'm on prednisone and well, you don't mess with food near me when I'm on that stuff! My cheeks will eat your first born before giving up any food :)

So overall, we had a wonderful visit and I got back in about 3 weeks for my bronchoscopy, angiogram (for the BAR study - the extra blood vessel that was attached), and possibly tapping my lung again. I don't have the date yet, but will let everyone know as soon as I do!

Also, I plan on doing Great Strides this year... and actually walking!! It's May 16th and would love for everyone to come and walk with me. I'll see most of you Saturday at the Egg Hunt, so expect to be hit up for a shirt order and a commitment to walk :)

Quick Updates

So not much to report on, which I'll take :D

I got my blood levels drawn yesterday and my magnesium has fallen, yet again. Right now we're just going to increase my oral Mg intake to 3 times a day. If that doesn't work (they'll re-check the levels Monday at Cleveland) we'll either change magnesium tablets to a different compound or do IV magnesium. No big deal, at least we have a plan.

Cleveland has also decided to cancel the broncoscopy for the time being since I'm on coumadin. It would just be more difficult to admit me in the hospital for the 5 days prior to do the IV heparin to do the bronch and then stay to get my coumadin levels back to where they need to be... sheesh. The alternative would be to switch me to heparin or lovenox injections, but my kidney function isn't where it should be in order for me to have this option.

So Mom and I will leave Sunday night and go up to Cleveland for our appointments on Monday. We'll be home Monday night hopefully by dinner... I know that's wishful thinking, but we'll see :)

Kelly's competition this past weekend went much better than the weekend before. She scored a 1st place with her solo and the group dances scored "ultimate victories" - it was a weird scoring system... but the group dances also placed overall in the age categories! I was so proud of her!!

That's it for now, I'll post again after we get home from Cleveland!

Busy Busy Busy :)

Over this last week I've been pretty active. No marathons yet, but as soon as my legs are strong enough, watch out!!

Got my INR checked today at the anticoag clinic and they said it was perfect :) 2.2 so they don't need to change my coumadin levels, which makes me happy. Got a call from Cleveland about my other drug levels, they're doing great too! Only thing is one of my white blood cells is a little on the high side so they're increasing one of my meds which will knock that number back down. Glad to hear that they're so on top of things like that :D So there's the boring medical part of all this... on to the fun stuff!!

Sunday was my first outing since I've been home. I did it up big, LOL. Cameron and I went to Smokey Bones for lunch. Apparently, if you walk into a restaurant wearing a mask and want a table for 2, you get seated immediately. hmmmm, maybe this mask isn't such a bad thing :P We then went to Kroger's since I've been craving fruit and dairy. I was able to walk around the store for a good while and when I got to the car... I WASN'T SHORT OF BREATH!!! My legs hurt like I was running, but Andrew was nice and strong still. It was amazing!!

Monday was lab drawl day, so I got poked and then got some yummy McDonald's breakfast :) I spent most of the day on the couch though because my legs were a little fatigued, haha! I did go see Karen Vaske (the angel lady) that afternoon though. Just some theta healing to help with the side effects of all of the drugs. Nausea, tremors, hair thinning - ya know, the fun stuff :) Tuesday was boring, but my legs had recovered.

Wednesday Cameron and I decided to tackle Kenwood mall. I only did the lower level so we could finally get his birthday present. His birthday was in September and I just hadn't felt well enough to go to Fossil with him to pick the watch out. I was able to do that, get some new lotion for my face at Clinique, eat dinner, just overall, be normal. Well, as normal as one can be with a mask on their face that has little multicolored bandaid people on it, LOL!!

Thursday was spent doing some laundry and watching the WKU game later that night - GO TOPS!! and Today I had my clinic visit and then Mom and I went to Target (where I walked the whole store without gasping - BEAUTIFUL!) and then met Caroline, Brian and Moo for lunch at El Caporal. It was very yummy and I was actually able to eat quite a bit which was a nice change. Tonight Aunt Pam, Jerry, Aunt Lois, and Uncle Don are all coming over to watch the X game - Let's hope it's a great game!!

This weekend's Kelly's dance competition so we'll all be busy with that. It'll be nice to be able to go to one and cheer her on :D I'll be sure to update about all of that later on.

HAPPY SPRING!!

Enjoying Home

I'm back home in Cincinnati for a few weeks until I go back for another surveillance bronch. For right now the family and I are just enjoying being home.

I got the results back from the 1st bronch and showed slight rejection. My nurse said that it's completely normal and laughed saying if I didn't show any they would think I'm weird. We did a 3 day Solumedrol burst followed by a 3 week prednisone taper back to my normal dose.

All the aches and pains are getting better. The worst part of all of the side effects have been the tremors and my hair's thinning a little. Nothing too horrible and I've been told that within 6 months things should stabilize. Plus, if this is what I have to go through to breathe.... totally worth it!

Oh, and the blood clot thing. They think it's from all of the lines I've had placed over the years. My clotting times have always been fine and I've never had any swelling so no one ever thought anything of clots. After my arm swelled so bad (which is now back to normal - YAY!!) they searched and found several clots. I'm just on coumadin now until a few days before procedures and then switching to lovenox until after the procedure then back to coumadin. And it's only for 3 months they're thinking.

Now comes the fun part of regaining muscles... who knew staying in bed for a week would set me back so much in the physical department :D But that's all that going on here. I plan on taking my demon of a dog for walks this week to enjoy the hopefully nice weather. Plus some blood work, a trip to the angel lady (Karen Vaske) and my first visit at the Coumadin clinic. Busy, but easy week :) Hope all's well with everyone else!! It's just good to be home!

Monday Evening-Surprise!!!!

Hi everyone!
Amazing day! I got to the hospital this morning and the nurse had already told Jennifer that she was being discharged today. The Dr. on the floor came in and said that they were discussing Jennifer in the meeting and said she could go home, but didn't say home, as in hotel, or home, home as in West Chester.
We made a few jokes about it but continued to sit in the room. It was 1:30 and I had not eaten lunch, so decided to go down to the cafeteria to see what special foods they had for today. As I left the wing that Jennifer was in, I ran into KeLynn, the nurse coordinator for the post-transplant and she said we were going home to West Chester. I love that lady! lol She is actually a lovely person and I really do like her, but was thrilled that we were going home. I went downstairs to call Danny, my brother, to let him know that he shouldn't rent a car to come to Cleveland, since we were on our way home! He was in Columbus delivering a load, so told him I would swing by to let him see Jennifer and of course, I wanted to see him too. We spent about 45 minutes to an hour with him, he checked my oil in the car and noticed I was 2 1/2 quarts low. Of course, I got the look over his glasses, like "I thought I taught you better than this" look and said we needed to get oil.

We went to buy oil, we visited for a while and then he had to move down the road to get another load for S. Carolina. We followed him to I-71 and got on the expressway and headed to West Chester. We arrived a little before 9, turning the corner down our street and the whole neighborhood was standing in our driveway all the way into the street. How awesome. I stopped the car at the corner, just shocked, Jennifer and I sat in the car, crying! What an amazing group of friends we have!!!!
There were posters, smiles, hugs and congratulations from everyone.
Jennifer came into the house, afraid to be outside too long. I of course, stood outside talking to everyone and just enjoying everyone being outside and the amazing group of friends and support we have.
So, we've made it back home and so happy to be here. Jack has snubbed Jennifer, but sure he will get over it. Sam has acted like a puppy, turning and running, but can't see. Kelly was crying and excited that we were home, all together again and Ray was just doing his thing, content that we are all home.
We have an appointment on March 24, so she will go back, where they will do the angiogram and not sure if another bronch is part of this or not, but another visit to Dr. Budev. I'm sure that Jennifer and I will sleep well in our own beds tonight. We are beyond thrilled to be home, especially in this wonderful neighborhood with all the wonderful friends that we have. It was truly a moment that we will never forget! And we're HOME!!!!!!
Love to all!
Becky and Jennifer

Routine Doctor Visit

Had a regular appointment with Dr. Trapnell today. Nothing big to really report on.

I'm up 4 1/2 pounds since August and my lung function is about the same, which is good. My goal is to gain more weight and try to avoid as much of the crap that's going around as possible. I also will be starting full time oxygen, but that's to help me be able to function better. Last, they changed my BiPAP levels so hopefully I won't burp as much during the night.

That's all that happened. Have a Merry Christmas everyone!!

New Port

So I had my old port replaced last Thursday and recovery has been going well. It's still tender to touch, but nothing too bad. If I know I'm going to be moving my arm a lot, I just take a tylenol before hand and I'm good to go!

I got to see the Wizard of Oz last night at the Aronoff... it was wonderful! Mom, Kelly and I all went and we had a great time.

My next thing on my list is I have my post-op exam on Monday and then I go back to Cleveland to see their ENT folks on Tuesday - eek!! Wish me luck!!

Home from the Hospital

I was admitted into the hospital on 10/14. Nothing major, just I knew I was getting sick and figured I could get my testing for Cleveland completed. I needed to have a pH probe, an esophagram, and a right heart cathaterization

• pH Probe: Not too bad. It was a small flexable wire that was guided up my nose and down my throat. Once it was placed it was just annoying. It kind of felt like I had a popcorn kernel stuck on the back of my throat. Those results came back within the normal range for acid reflux, so yay for me!
• Esophagram: This was to replace the esophageal w/ Manometry that I wasn't able to complete last July. It's basically an upper GI. I drank this chalky drink which was flavored a chocolate flavor (I love going to a Children's hospital!) and that made it tolerable. It showed that I had a slow emptying time for my stomach (which we already knew) but that everything flowed in the right direction and had good movement.
  
• Right Heart Cath: This one wasn't that pleasent. It wasn't hard though... I was asleep for it! They instered a cathater into my femoral artory and vein and guided it up to my heart. While in the heart, they take internal blood pressures from the right side of the heart. These numbers can indicate how severe the lung disease is. Mine is slightly elevated indicating I have lung disease (surprise!) and these numbers will give me my placement on the transplant list. The downside to this test was the massive bruise that I had on my right inner thigh and the soreness from having to lie flat for so long.

I had my yearly appointment recently. I've talked to my CF doc and transplant docs about having kids post-transplant. None of them were too happy about that idea, but said that if I wanted there was the option of serrogacy. I brought it up to my GYN and she gave me some info on it. How they harvest the eggs and such. She also said that since they don't want me to get pregnant that I may want to consider getting my tubes tied. Pills are frowned upon because the horomones can play with the medication post-tx. An IUD is a foreign object and could potentially stimulate my immune system which is not good post-tx. It could cause complications and rejection of the lungs. Then there's barrier methods but my doc said that they are really only 85% effective. So have a few options on sterilization, but eek. I never thought I'd be sitting here at 24 years old and considering this. My other option is to wait and have my husband (when that day comes) get a vastectomy.

I don't know. A lot to think about... but I go back to Cleveland on Monday, so I can talk to the doctor then and see what they think. I have a sleep study tomorrow though, so I'll be busy for the next few days!

Doctor's Appointment

I had my appointment yesterday and things went well.

I am officially at 106lbs and my PFTs were up just a little. I'm sitting at 24% now. I also got the news that I don't have to go back to University for my admissions... I can go to Children's without jumping through a million hoops :)

Tuesday's still there scaring me a little... just nerves from having to go to Cleveland. I thought it would get better each time I go up there, but it's just as bad (if not worse) as the first time I went.

*sigh*... I'll let you all know how everything goes!

Just the basics

Still on IVs, at least until I see the doctor on Friday. I go to Cleveland again next Tuesday, which I'm getting a little nervous about. Just the thought of going through all of this... it's just scary.

I'm at about 106 lbs now, which is so great. I finally broke that 105 mark!! 112 here I come!!!

Changes

So endocrine has increased my insulin. I think I'm actually gaining more weight now, which is great!

I also had more antibiotics added. I had some symptoms flair up on Thursday, so we're crossing our fingers right now. I think things are working well since I am feeling much better.

Anyway, need to make this short, gotta go to the trainers!

Things are Improving

I'm finally off the oxygen! I feel OK, still not 100%, but I think I just need to let the IVs work now. Obviously they're doing something if my saturations are coming back up!

My blood sugars are a little off lately. Sounds like they're going to be changing my insulin around. Hopefully this will allow me to gain some weight finally! Keep your fingers crossed!!

Bad day

I've been having bad days lately. I have just overall been more congested and have watched my oxygen saturations fall. A normal person's sats hang around 97 or above, mine without oxygen is 80-85. Not good. I'm now on oxygen during the day as well as during the night.

I also started IVs Tuesday night. One is the Tobramycin again, which is what effects my magnesium. *crosses fingers* last time was ok, so let's hope this one will be too!

As soon as I'm doing better, I'll be sure to post again.

The ugly "T" word

I will never forget standing at St. Elizabeth's ambulance parking talking to my mom and hearing her say "Dr. Trapnell wants to discuss lung transplant with you. He's upset that you haven't had this conversation yet."

At the time he wasn't my doctor and my only thought was "How DARE he bring up such a horrible thing!" I knew my health had declined over the past few years, but as most thought I guess, that I would be OK still. I figured that if I needed a transplant that my doctor at the time would have brought it up by now. 1 month later, I switched doctors so that Dr. Trapnell was my CF doctor and have never regretted that decision once. In fact, once I knew that he would take me as a patient, I didn't even have to hesitate to have all of my stuff transferred to him.

He brought it up in the kindest way, saying that he doesn't think that I NEED it right now, but that he thinks I will in the future. That's the time when you need to undergo all of the evaluations and get on the list. So many people are on the list and wait and wait and wait... and end up that they waited too long to be placed on the list and don't make it to surgery. We talked about it again a few times after that (I see him on a fairly regular basis at this point) and finally in April, I decided I was willing to continue with the process. That decision was a tough one for me. Not because I don't want to live, but because I was afraid of dieing during surgery, or worse... soon after surgery from complications. I know all too many people who either didn't make it to transplant or died from complications. Each complication being unique.

June 17. That's the day that I made my first appearance at the Cleveland Clinic in Ohio....